The mind/body connection

If you have a sick mind, it will eventually make your body sick. That’s what happened to me.

At age 40, I was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I underwent surgery to remove lymph nodes in my left groin and then 6 rounds of chemotherapy.

Again, I was angry at God. I thought that he had allowed me to become sick because it was his lesson to make me appreciate life. “Fuck you God and your lessons!”

My cancer had presented with two chicken egg-sized tumors in my groin area. It is no wonder that the tumor was there. I had been sexually molested as a child and then became a sex addict as my coping mechanism for stress. Perhaps the fact that the tumor was near my genital area was an alarm bell that I had a dysfunctional relationship with my sexuality. I had also embodied years of anger, sadness, shame, and guilt that literally balled up into a tumor. It was not God that had caused my cancer. I did.

You would think that I would heed such a dire warning! I did not. It took me another 10 years to resolve my relationship with my sexual behaviors, learn healthy coping skills, and to focus on healing my mind in order for my body to remain healthy.

I write about my mind/body connection and my journey to healing in my book, My Secret Life as a Sex Addict. How I repaired the Damage.